This journal has been untouched for too long. Because my LiveJournal is known to many, I have this sort of feeling that I can't really write what I really want to write there anymore. My LiveJournal is pretty much untouched too since I barely have time to do anything. Well I do have the time to do stuff that I want to do but it's just the matter of me using my time wisely. College has been filled with one too many emotions and I guess you can say that it's starting to take a toll on me. The work is actually starting to seem like college work even though some of the stuff now I've already learned in high school. But like many of the things learned in high school, you tend to forget them the moment you're out. Friendships have also been pretty straining. I feel as if all the anger that I've vented out on people is starting to get back to me. Boy-wise... well you know how that goes. One minute, you feel like you're at the top of the world and nothing could go wrong, but then of course, he goes and does something that is very 'him' and it just rubs you the wrong way, and with that, you get all mad for nothing. Well that's pretty much how it's going with me. Honestly, he really is the first guy that I've really liked in a REALLY long time. And I think because of that, I tend to focus way too much attention on him when it's really not needed. Lol, I really need to stop saying... really. I don't know, the things he does and the way he acts are really two separate and different things. I keep hearing that everyone in the hall is waiting for something to happen but with me, it's two-sided. I more or less want something to happen yes, because it would prove my theory of me having the worst luck with guys.. wrong? And on the other side of the spectrum, I kinda don't want anything to happen too soon based on the fact that he's still in.. like/love/hate/something unexplainable with his ex-girlfriend. Hah, yeah, once again, I tend to pick the best out of the bunch. I would finish what I have to say right now but the fact of the matter is that I have other homework to get to so, until then, take care.

Since LiveJournal is being extremely unreasonable right now, I think I just might start blogging here again. Things have been going okay I guess lately. I don't know how to describe my life anymore other than.. boring kind of? Graduation is just two weeks away and I'm more anxious than anything. Lots of people are celebrating it and everything and I'm just sitting here, worrying my ass off about if I'm really going to graduate or not. Sometimes I really need to stop having the attitude like I don't really care anymore and that things will just work themselves out completely in the end. But sorry to say, things never work that way. You have to work for what you want, if you really want it in the end. I don't want to say that I'm lost in my life right now but sometimes, I can't help but to feel that way. I wonder why am I here, what am I doing, what am I going to do? Am I worth all this time and money being wasted? It wouldn't hurt being guided by someone from time to time, but since college is gaining speed, I can't think about those kind of things anymore. I am my own person and I need to find what I want to do with my life. Not all that fast though, but a little bit of help never hurt anyone.

Mmm, November is near its end and I can already feel the Christmasy atmosphere! :)

I really should stop starting my homework at like 11PM. Time is always an issue. When is there ever enough time?

 

 

I really don't know what to do. I need some sort of sign please. It's a feeling that I haven't felt in a while and hopefully it won't turn out like it did before.

 

 

don't tell me that I'm the only one who wishes it was cold and groggy and Christmas-y already. Why the hell do I live in Southern California? -_-

Here are some polaroids that I uploaded from yesterday. Enjoy.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

It's been 20 days since I last updated and I am truly sorry for that. I seem to update more in my LiveJournal more than anything else. So if you really want to know what's going on in my life, go there and read what's up! Lol! My dad is coming back tonight and I'm apparently going to the airport to go pick him up! So far, I think driving is pretty okay. I'm not at that point yet where I feel like it's a hassle but I'm not thinking that it's totally fun or anything too. I seem to want to go out more ever since I got my car, even if it's to a friends house. But of course, my Asian mother always says no. School has been pretty hectic too since October is coming up (more like tomorrow) and that's when the majority of my applications start. I really hope I get somewhat of a decent score on the upcoming SAT. But enough about that, how've you all been? :)

 

Ps.

If you haven't seen it already, this is a video that was 'taken' during the summer. If you ever want to get even with somebody this is the best and the worst way to do it. The girl with the high voice is me and the girl with the 'lower' voice is my friend, Christina. The guy that you see running up the stairs with no shirt but boxers on is her ex. Hopefully I don't sound like that in real life but I guess I do. I can be really mean sometimes so it's best not to get on my 'bad side'. :) Enjoy!

Okay, I am finally updating my Vox after about a bazillion years. I really should be studying for my AP Art History quiz/test that I have tomorrow but that can wait about, 5 minutes? School started last Tuesday and believe me, i am already feeling the pain. Senior year is gonna be one loooong ride. At this point, I cannot wait for second semester. My birthday is in 10 days and I'm pretty excited about it. Last year was a major bummer because for some weird reason, I could care less about my 16th birthday. Maybe it's because of that stupid MTV show 'My Super Sweet Sixteen'. It's not like I'm gonna have a part with a thousand people from my school with some band that my parents spent a fortune on. Oh well, that was a thing in the past so let's leave it at that! If you really want to know what's going on with my life, visit my Livejournal. You can feel free to add me there too if you'd like.

 

Mmkay, must get back to making notecards for tomorrow's thing. Have a great week everyone. :)

Holy crap, I really need to start updating this. Okay, will do. Very soon.

A 'full on' update will be coming atcha real soon! Today was pretty good: went swimming, got a somewhat tan-like tan, Korean BBQ for dinner aaand spent time with my nephews. Okay, pictures either tomorrow or the day after or sometime soon this week when I upload them. Hope everyone is well.

I've just eaten four fortune cookies from Panda Express within the last five minutes. Someone tell me that I'm not addicted to some kind of cookie that supposedly tells you your fortune, ie. Sail into the lando of opportunity- treasures await. (Which totally reminds me of Johnny Depp in PotC: The Dead Man's Chest) Or: Forge ahead with new ideas, You will always be surrounded by true friends, (Oh gosh, I sure do hope so!) and last but not least, Your principles mean more to you than any money or success (which is more or less true if I really think about it). Okay, must shower now since I smell (lol) and because I a) need to go exchange my dress for other things at Forever21 since my mother did not approve of the price or the color and b) I must go driving again.

No more fortune cookies. Well, maybe. I might take some from my sister but she might notice. Or not. ^_^